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If you haven't listened to the first episode of the series, GO check it out. Or don't and just stick around for this one. OK, let's get started. I don't. I don't want to waste any time. It's 6:30 in the morning when I'm recording this whenever I wake up at 6:30. And I get a weird desire to record. I'm a little bit more feisty than usual because I still have that morning grumpiness a little bit. I'm still a little bit on edge because I just woke up. So I'm just. I'm eager to get started. So I I mentioned this in the last episode, I but I think I should say it again. I feel like right now, in our culture, in our Society of sorts, it feels like there's no room to fail. Because we're living in the age of the Internet, it feels like all of our failures have the chance of being broadcasted to the world. And in the last episode, I talked about how. It's frightening that when you **** ** as a human being, you treat somebody badly, you get too drunk at a party, something like that. You fail as a human being in some way. There's a chance that somebody might whip out their phone, film that, and put it on the Internet and just absolutely embarrass the **** out of you. And there's a chance that the Internet might pick that up, make it go viral, and your life could feel ruined for months, maybe even years, from something like that. Now, it's not super common. The likelihood of it happening is not that high, but it's also not that low in the age of the Internet. It's a free for all, you know what I mean? So it's scary because everything that we post, everything that people post of us. Is available to whoever wants to see it, and is open to criticism and hatred and maybe love to. But we're not being that positive today because actually, no, we are being positive today. You know what? I am a positive girl, OK? Anyway, it's nerve wracking because every single thing that goes out there, the matter of you posted it, or your friend posted it of you, or a stranger posted it of you, it doesn't matter. Anything can be out there and it's scary, I think. It's caused a lot of people to try less things, experiment in life a lot less, and live in fear in one way or another. I think in regards to failing at our endeavors in life, the fear is a little bit different than failing as a human being. When you fail as a human being, it's scary because one **** ** in life could reflect on your entire personality. It could change. How people perceive you as a human being on a very deep level. And that's scary because sometimes we **** ** and it's not a true representation of ourselves. Sometimes it is, but sometimes it isn't. I would say when it comes to failing in our endeavors in life, there's more of a fear of embarrassment. And I think that that's different because it's a little bit less serious when you really, really deeply look at it. Because embarrassment is a less dangerous feeling. Feeling heartbroken because a bunch of people on the Internet or in your personal life or whatever think that you're a bad person because you made a mistake, when deep down you know that that's not you or deep down, you know that that is you and that you need to change. That's a lot more painful and a lot more. Serious than the embarrassment you feel about a failed endeavor because it's just not as big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. But I still wanted to talk about it today because I think that it's causing a lot of people. Right now, to have a sort of mental block when it comes to starting new endeavors in life out of fear of embarrassment. I mean, on the Internet we see people everyday who are already the best at the endeavor that we want to start. For example, let's say you want to start playing an instrument. How easy is it to go on Instagram and be like, oh, let me just look at Travis Barker's Instagram and he's just like, the best drummer ever. You know what I mean? Or like. Oh, I want to start painting paintings. And then you go on Instagram and look at a galleries Instagram, like some gallery and like Paris, and you scroll through and see all the art that they carry in their gallery and you're like, well, I could never make something like that. Like **** like, that's those, you know, whatever. I think to a certain extent it can be inspiring to see people who are really good at what they do. And I think that there's a positive element to that, but when you're constantly seeing people. Every day on your Instagram who are really good at what they do, I think that deep down it kind of starts to convince you. Like, I could never get there. All these people I see on Instagram already are good at their thing. I'm going to look stupid if I start this from scratch, you know what I mean? Like, you might look at somebody on Instagram who you think has such good style, you think their style is so good and maybe they even sew their own clothes and then you might scroll again. And see somebody who's amazing at drawing and then you might scroll again and see somebody who is extremely athletic and is really good at playing sports. And then you might whatever, seeing all these people showcasing their talents all day long on social media. Can start to make you feel like, well, these people seem like they were born with it. Like, they seem like they were born good at this ****. Why should I even try? And as much as I know on a personal level that that's not how it works, you know, just because somebody else is really good at something doesn't take away from the fact that. I might really enjoy trying it, you know what I'm saying? Just because there are already people who have made it, they're really good at what they do, doesn't mean that I can't. Start from scratch and be bad at something for a few years, and then eventually get to a point where I'm actually really good at something. The problem is, is that social media rarely shows people when they're not good at something yet. Do you know what I mean? When you're scrolling through social media, you only see the people who have arrived at an endeavor. You know what I mean? They've arrived and succeeded at a given endeavor. People don't usually share the beginning stages, like when things are difficult and you don't know how to do it and it's not easy and it's uncomfortable and you want to quit and blah blah. Most of that's not shown. So in the back of your mind, you convince yourself that everybody immediately was good at stuff, and you just suck *** and are a loser because you're not automatically good at whatever endeavor you're pursuing. I guess it all boils down to by seeing people on Instagram and on YouTube and on wherever. By seeing people on social media every day that are talented at different things, especially at something that you want to pursue and you want to try to do. I think you begin to think, why would I start when there's already so many people who are good at this thing? You know, let's say you wanna start a jewelry business. You might look at all the jewelry businesses on Instagram and think, why would I even try to make a jewelry business if there are already so many popular, successful jewelry businesses out there? It's almost like we find ourselves in a sort of existential crisis because we're like, if there's already. So many people doing this one thing who are already good at it. How am I gonna be able to add to this? You know what I mean? How am I gonna be able to ever reach their level when they're already there? That already makes them so much farther ahead. By the time I catch up, they'll already be at the next level. It feels like a game of catch up that can never be won. And the truth is, is that it can't ever be won. There's always going to be somebody who's better than you at something you will never the. The chances of you being the best in the world that something is showing, it's not. It's just not gonna happen. But the truth is, is that that's completely OK. The comparison that we experience on the Internet every day sets an unrealistic expectation for ourselves. The constant comparison that we experience on the Internet, just because when we're looking at people on the Internet, we're seeing the stuff that goes viral, we're seeing the stuff that we follow on purpose, that shows up in our feeds because we're constantly. Seeing what other people are doing. We're seeing their successes, blah blah blah. We're subconsciously telling ourselves, God, why would I try this? Why would I try to do this? The thing is, is that the impact that the Internet is having on our psyche when it comes to trying new endeavors in life? I don't think that it's intentional, and I'll give you an example. If you have a passion, I think that's amazing. And if you want to, you should pursue it to its fullest extent, because why not? Even though it might seem hard to stand out when you're getting started with your passion project or your side hustle, one platform that can really help you on your journey is Squarespace. Squarespace is an all-in-one platform with the tools to help anyone create an online presence, sell products, share content and more. I really love how Squarespace allows creators and businesses to build a loyal following, because honestly, that's just as important as being able to build a website for whatever project you're starting. 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So I will be picking up a few things from Macy's if you need to get some stuff for fallcheckoutmacys.com, that's macys.com. You'll find what you need. I can guarantee you that. I am not the type of person that naturally looks at other people's successes and feels like it's getting in the way of mine. Like if someone in my life succeeds at something, I am stoked for them. You know what I mean? I'm like rock on babe and I've always been like that. I don't think I've ever felt like threatened by other peoples successes necessarily. But for whatever reason, the Internet has a different impact on me. In my personal life, I don't feel an issue. I'm not like, you know, looking at my dad, who's like an amazing artist, and thinking to myself, well, I could never be an artist because he's such a good artist. So, like, why? Why even try? Because he's already so good. And, and, you know, why does the world need another artist when they already have my dad, who's so good? Or I don't look at my friends who are musicians. And think, well, why the **** would I learn how to play drums if they already have a band and they're already really talented? Why does the world need another drummer like in my personal life? I don't think like that. But when I'm scrolling through the Internet and I'm seeing people all the time that are really good at stuff, subconsciously I start to get discouraged. I feel uninspired a lot of times when I spend too much time on the Internet because I see too many people who are so good at what they do that I feel almost stupid even trying to do what they're doing. But I think it's subconscious because then I'll have a moment where maybe I'll see my drum set. In the other room, and I'm like, oh, maybe I'll go sit and play drums for a little bit, and then I'll be like, Emma, you're an idiot. Like, you're so bad at drums, even though nobody's around and nobody's gonna hear you. You're so bad at drums that it's, like, embarrassing that you're even trying. And then I start convincing myself, well, you'll never be that good, you know? You'll never be that good. So what's the point? And it's like this battle I have in my own brain, where on one hand I'm like, I know that it doesn't matter. I know that. At the end of the day, when it comes to pursuing a hobby, the most important thing is enjoying it. Or when it comes to trying a new creative thing, or when it comes to trying a new job, or trying to succeed at school by taking it really hard class, whatever it may be. I personally struggle with one part of my brain knowing that it's OK to fail and knowing that I'm not going to be a natural from the beginning and there's going to be a period of time. Or suck at something because that's normal, and knowing that nothing is promised like it might not workout, I might not like it, it might not work for me, and it might end up being a failure. On one hand, my brain knows that that's OK, but on the other hand, the constant stream of information on the Internet about people succeeding at things can sometimes make you feel discouraged because you feel like that little. In the beginning. That's really difficult. And the potential that there is for failure has the potential to be embarrassing for you, but also it doesn't feel fair. Almost. You you kind of think about it and you're like, there are so many people that are just good at this. Like, why can't I just be good at this? I find myself thinking that all the time. But the key is to push away those thoughts that develop subconsciously from being on the Internet and scrolling around all day, and to focus on your own journey. Really. With everybody on the planet who's successful at something, there was probably 50 failed attempts. There were probably 50 times that they wanted to quit. And they probably worked really hard to get to where they're at. We don't see that. But even beyond that, who cares? I try to live my life, striking a balance where on one hand, I'm I'm living my life for me. You know, I'm living my life to make me happy. In whatever way necessary. But on the other hand, I still make time for other people. I'm still empathetic for others. And here's what I always try to remember when it comes to starting a new endeavor in life #1 the beginning is always going to be bad. Basically, when you start any endeavor, it's going to be challenging. It's not going to come natural. It's gonna feel uncomfortable and you're gonna feel like a failure in the beginning. That's just part of it, because nobody's good at something right off the bat. The learning curve in the beginning is always the hardest #2 what other people are doing and what other people are saying doesn't really matter. When trying something new, you have to just focus all of your energy inward what other people are saying about what you're doing and what other people are doing. On the Internet, maybe succeeding at the thing that you're trying, where you feel like you're failing right now. All of that should be shut out as much as possible. All outside opinions influences, whatever should be taken with a grain of salt. It shouldn't be taken that deeply, because when you're trying a new endeavor, they're going to be people who are like, why are you even trying to do that? You know, there's already so many people who are good at that thing. Try something else. There are always going to be people online who are the best of the best, who are like, no, seriously, one day you could be just like me. Ignore all of that and focus all of your energy and word and do it for you. Work really hard at this thing for you. Get really good at this thing for you if your inspiration is coming from. Outside sources like people who are doubting you, or people who are heavily rooting for you, or from the comparison on the Internet that's not doing something for you. You've got to be doing it for you. Because when you do it for you, the irony is, is that number one, you're less likely to fail truly because you're more likely to keep going. And if you do fail for whatever reason, it's a lot easier to fail when the only person that you feel like you're going to be disappointing is yourself. I think we have a hard time disappointing others, and a lot of times that's a lot more painful than disappointing ourselves. The other thing to remember is that. Failure in life almost always teaches us something. There is always a valuable lesson in failure. It has the potential to lead us to discoveries about ourselves or about where our true passion may lie. For example, the first two times I started my YouTube channel because I started a YouTube channel three times, I think in total. The first two times I started was a failure. I made like 2 videos and then it was like, oh, I can't do this anymore. And then I would quit. And the reason why I would quit was because I was like, nobody's gonna see this. Like nobody's gonna see this. This is just kind of embarrassing. There are already so many people who are already on YouTube. Like, I'm late to the game. I have nothing new to add. Like why am I even doing this? And then the third time I started my YouTube channel, I started for a different reason. I didn't start because I wanted to be a YouTuber. I started because I liked editing YouTube videos. I liked creating YouTube videos in general. I just liked video creation in that way. I enjoyed the process and I just wanted a hobby to work on that would make me happy and that I could focus on. And when I started with that intent, I didn't care about embarrassing myself. I didn't care about disappointing the people in my life who were like, rooting for me. I didn't care because. I was starting for me, for me and me only, and I didn't care where it went. I didn't care if it was extremely successful. What I cared about was enjoying myself, and to me that was going to be a success. Whether or not other people think it's a success, whether or not I eventually make videos that are good enough and get enough subscribers to a point where I'm comparable to the people I look up to, it didn't matter. And then when that was my mindset, it worked because I kept making videos. Because I wanted to do it for me. I think the first two times I started it failed because I was doing it because I wanted to be a famous YouTuber. You know what I mean? Like the first two times I started, I definitely was like, no, no, no. I want to be a YouTuber and I want to succeed at it and I want to be the best at it. And it just didn't work because it was so discouraging to go into the endeavor with that mindset because when I post a video and it would get 0 views. I felt so far from what I wanted to eventually accomplish that it just felt like succeeding at that point was almost impossible, so I would quit. Whereas when I went into it kind of open minded and just said, listen, I just want to do this because I actually enjoy creating videos and as long as I'm enjoying myself then it's not a failure. You know, when I went into it with that mindset, it was like night and day, you know? I was more productive, I got more done. I was, I kept uploading videos. I was like excited about it. I didn't really care about being the best or whatever. And that's when it finally worked out, OK? So if I were to. Post a live radio show and I could play any music I wanted. I would honestly probably have the time of my Life OK, but I'll admit I would probably end up playing. Just sad music. I don't know what it is about me, but I love sad music, OK? And so I'd probably end up playing. A lot of sad music. Specifically for the people who are listening in the car by themselves. That want to shed a tear in a good way? Well now there is a place that I or you or anyone can host a live show. 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And it didn't work for me. I didn't enjoy doing it. In the beginning, I did. And then it just started to get too difficult and so I decided to stop doing it. And I failed, you know, I I quit and I failed and it didn't work. And I was like, you know what? I don't wanna do this anymore. Like, I can't do this anymore. But then I was like, hey, you like recording podcasts? You know, you enjoy the process of that. So but then I started anything goes where I basically decided I'm going to make a podcast that has no theme, where I talk about whatever I want every week. There's no theme. Whereas before there was this science theme going on with stupid genius, but I was like, I'm just going to make a podcast. Talk about whatever I want, and I don't even care if people listen. I'm just going to do it for fun and we'll see if it works. You know, with stupid genius, there was too much structure. You know, talking about science every single week became boring to me because there are other things I wanted to talk about in a podcast format, but I couldn't really do that because stupid genius was so structured. Then I started anything goes with low expectations. Just like, let me just do this for fun, you know, where I talk about whatever and see how it goes in it. And it's done so much better. Then stupid genius ever did. Stupid genius had to fail. My first podcast had to fail in order for me to figure out that this new structure of podcast that I'm doing now is what really works for me. That failure was crucial. Also, I'll mention that I've failed at almost every creative or musical endeavor I've ever started. For example, painting, drawing, playing instruments, cooking, whatever. Like anything in that realm. All of those things. I've failed at almost every single one of those things. I've failed to get good at those things. But do I enjoy them? Yes, by failing at hobbies over and over again, you know, and never really getting that good at these things. I used to feel discouraged because I was like, well, why would I keep doing these things? Why would I keep playing instruments when I suck at them? Why would I keep painting and drawing when I'm bad at it? Why would I keep cooking if I'm not that good at it? You know? Blah, blah blah. Instead of looking at it like, hey, who cares, like I'm having fun. I used to feel like this is embarrassing, that I'm even trying to do this cause I'm just so bad at it, you know? But from failing at those things, what I learned over time was, yeah, it doesn't matter if I enjoy cooking, if I enjoy playing the drums, if I enjoy painting with watercolor, if I enjoy it, then it doesn't really matter. And what I learned too was is that if I fail at something. Like a hobby. Especially if I fail at a hobby and it makes me want to quit altogether, then that's a sign to me that I'm pursuing that hobby or that thing or that activity or whatever for the wrong reasons. Because when you try a hobby or an endeavor in that realm, a failure shouldn't completely deter you from doing it. Because if you really enjoy the process, then a little failure here and there won't discourage you from the whole thing because you're like, well, I still enjoy it. So if you're starting an endeavor because you just want to be the best at it, you're always going to end up disappointed in every little failure in the beginning is gonna just ruin you. You know what I mean? It's really hard. It's really hard to start any new endeavor these days. I think it's safe to say that because mentally there are so many blocks in our way, whether it's the Internet or people in our lives telling us what to do. There are so many things that make it mentally difficult for us to start and to stick to it and. To accept failure as something that's not a negative thing, always in an endeavor because there's so much to be learned from that failure. I wrote down some tips on how to make the process easier. Number one, I think as much as you can when starting something new, try to keep it to yourself. And the reason for that is when you don't broadcast to the world that you're starting something new. There's so much less pressure on yourself to succeed. When you share your endeavor with the world now, people are asking you about it. Now people are watching you. And the pressure? Builds quickly if you kind of keep it to yourself and keep it private. It's so much safer because you don't have to worry about embarrassing yourself on social media because you're not posting about it, you're not telling anyone about it on the Internet, and you don't have to worry about disappointing the people in your life who are rooting for you. You get to go on the journey truly by yourself, and that is one of the best things that you can do when you start a new endeavor when I first started. The YouTube channel. I didn't tell anyone except for my parents. I told no one, and it was amazing because it was like no one knows. So if this all goes to **** who cares because no one's watching. My other recommendation is make it a goal to work on this endeavor for 30 days nonstop 30 days. And if you aren't seeing progress and you're not enjoying yourself at the end of those 30 days, then you reconsider because I think a big reason why. People quit and they think that they failed when they're starting a new endeavor is because when they first start, they're really bad at whatever that thing may be. And most people quit trying something new, like within the 1st 30 days, you know what I mean? Because they're like, this is not working, this is not clicking, but if you can push through the learning curve in the beginning and you can get into a rhythm. With something new, that's one of the biggest challenges. Once you get through that, it only gets better from there. And just because things aren't working out in the beginning doesn't mean that it's a failure. And I think we tend to believe that. So by trying something new for 30 days, working on something new for 30 days, you truly have the time to figure out if it's something that you want to keep pursuing or if it's something that maybe isn't right for you. Another thing that you can do is turn off your phone. And seriously, have some discipline with yourself about social media use when you're starting a new endeavor. Because when you're starting something new, you're very vulnerable. You feel kind of stupid. You feel kind of embarrassed. You're comparing yourself a little bit more than usual to people on the Internet. Know that and adjust your phone usage accordingly. Eliminate the potential for subconscious comparison on the Internet. And I think that that would be really helpful. I think that failing at an endeavor, whatever that may be, is so normal and it's so healthy, and it teaches you so much. There are so many different things that can teach you. It can teach you things about yourself. It can teach you things about what types of things you like to do in your life, what types of things you enjoy spending your time doing. It can teach you about what things excite you in life and what things don't. There are so many benefits to failing at an endeavor. And on the Internet, when people fail, sometimes it's looked at like, ooh, that's cringe, that's sad. Oh, that's embarrassing. But that's not true. Don't listen to that voice and know that everyone on this planet has failed at something. And everybody on this planet will probably fail again, and there's no way to know if something's going to work until you try it. Sometimes you might have to try a few times, too, but there's no way to know until you try. And every time you try something new, there's a chance that you might fail. But when you look at failure as something that will teach you something rather than something that's just embarrassing, then you'll feel fearless, and you'll want to try so many new. Things. And the more things you try, the more things you might succeed at and you might end up falling in love with. I'm still struggling with this personally. I still find myself wanting to start something new and then feeling like, well, is it worth it? Because. If it fails and you know, it could be kind of embarrassing. And there are already so many people who are good at this, so why even try it? Like I still find myself in that place mentally, but then I have to remind myself of all the times in my life that I've failed. In that it's taught me something so valuable. And I also have to remember that not being the best at something is to be expected, because no one's the best. It's just not a real that's not a real thing. Like who? Like who's the best singer in the world? No one knows. There are a lot of really great singers, but who knows who the best singer is? There's just no such thing as being the best. So going in with that expectation is impossible and going into it. With just the hope that I'm going to enjoy myself and I'm going to do my best and I'm going to get as good at this as I possibly can. And who cares what comes with it or how long it takes or who's watching and what they think? That's life anyway. That's all I have for today. That's it. I'm. I'm cutting myself off anyway. Failing in life is not bad. And don't forget that I love you guys. Thank you for listening. I honestly want to go back to bed. I really I I just. I think I have to go back to bed like I use my brain enough for the day anyway. I love you all. Thank you for listening. Thank you for tuning in. If you want to tweet me or send me a DM, the Twitter is at Ag podcast and the Instagram is at anything goes. Follow anything goes on any platform that you stream podcasts, check out Chamberlain Coffee. I'm drinking a mocha latte right now that I made myself this morning. Very delicious for one and for two. So gorgeous. Like Matcha just looks gorgeous. It's the most beautiful green color. But yeah, check out Chamberlain coffee. We have coffee, we have accessories, we have matcha. We have so many things and use code AG15. If you want a little discount.